Two things happened this past week that really made me evaluate my choice to get healthy and how that has impacted not only myself, but my family as well.
This past week my husband and I celebrated our 11th wedding anniversary. He had to work, but we did get a sitter and go out for dinner. We were in the car trying to decide where to go and once that was established, we talked about how we were both in the mood for a cheat meal. I really hadn’t had this urge before but I was feeling pretty good about my accomplishments so far (down 60 lbs and 58 inches-thank you very much). I felt like I was in control and could handle one celebratory meal . We got to the restaurant and got seated and decided what we wanted to have…we didn’t cheat…it had just become so ingrained in us to order a particular way that we didn’t think about it until after the fact. We had a pretty good laugh at our walk on the wild side and then we were home by 9 PM…things change so much after you have kids.
The other thing that happened was I had been noticing that my daughter kept talking about our eating program…what is allowed and not allowed etc. My little Banana does love to follow the rules. I had been very conscientious though about how we presented this to our kids…we are setting an example that matters and they are watching, like a hawk. I didn’t want this to be about body shaming and I certainly didn’t want my devotion to a really healthy eating style to impact my kids negatively. I can hear some of you thinking “Well, how could that happen?” But as you all know kids get funny ideas and you can never tell what they perceive to be the motivation behind the changes we were making. I didn’t want either of my kids to have negative ideas about food and health…we are trying to live this lifestyle because it is healthy and we feel better, it is not only about weight loss, although that has been a great motivator. Right now we are on a strict program, but that will ease up considerably when we enter our maintenance phase. It has really opened the door for us to have frank conversations about how we see ourselves and the right way to treat our bodies.
These things just prove that I have made the transition from a flash-in-the-pan eating program to truly embracing a lifestyle. What once was hard for me has become a good habit…has it been easy? Not always, there were days that I would have given my left arm for a pizza. Once I have lost all the weight, then I need to be able to keep it off and learn from the lessons that I have traveled over the last 7 months (it will be just over a year by the time I reach my goal). I want to model a balanced life to my kids…body, soul and mind. I started this journey with in being all about me, but it has really become far more encompassing than that.